Last year, when I was living in New York and working at a truly horrible job, God graced me with several blessings in order to keep my spirits up. Those blessings were also key contributions to my journey with the Lord, because they were constant reminders that while I was “in the trenches” at a terrible job, I could always count on Jesus to be there enduring the terrors with me.
One of those blessings was a friendship with a coworker. We bonded when we were both scheduled to work in the pastry department, and were tasked with handling an extremely large delivery of cookies. It was a grueling task, and one that we would have never been able to do alone. It was through that task that we discovered how much we could rely on each other for anything. Over time our friendship only grew stronger, and after I left that job, he was really the only person I continue to maintain steady communication with.
This friendship came as a surprise to me, because we were so different. While working at that job I was quite open about my Catholic faith and he was quite open that he was not. I never felt judgement from him though and instead he asked and continues to ask about my faith. In fact, even though our religious beliefs do not always match, we always end up agreeing on many “hot topics” that can often create major divisions between people.
We both can see that we were meant to have this friendship with one another. He believes that it was arranged by the universe, whereas I know it was the Holy Spirit. Nevertheless, we are united in the faith we were destined to be in each other’s lives, and this belief was only affirmed last week.
We had somehow found ourselves on the topic of my future wedding. To clarify, I am not engaged and I am not even dating anyone, but we like to fantasize about the wedding day just because he is a florist, and being the artist he is, has already started picking out flower arrangements.
It is no secret that one of my greatest desires for my life is to find that special guy and get married; however, I also have a deep desire to be a mother, which I have not expressed to the general public quite as much. I have never had that motherly instinct, and I do not gravitate to children like some do. It is because of this I question if I would be a good mother. In the deepest part of my heart, I have that fear that God does not intend that I become one.
Fortunately, the Lord knows my heart, and knows what I need to hear and when I need to hear it. During that wedding conversation I was having with my friend, he suddenly shifted the conversation from the wedding plans to motherhood.
He told me that even though he is extremely excited to see how my future love story turns out, he is even more excited to see me as a mother, because he knows how wonderful I will be as a mother. This statement was so powerful, I was left speechless.
It was in that moment that I realized I had never heard that before. I have never heard someone consciously tell me that they think I would be a good mother without any coaxing from me.
I have complete confidence that the Holy Spirit was using my friend to get a message to me. I told my friend that his statement was the most incredible and significant thing anyone could ever say to me, because his words left me forever changed.
I was filled with this new and enriched faith that I am meant to be a mother someday, and that I can actually be good at it. The Holy Spirit is beautiful in His design, and He can perform miracles in the most simplest of circumstances. I am so grateful to have this friendship in my life and it is because I know that it is a gift from God.