I only recently started writing for Ignitum Today, with my first article being published a few weeks ago about standing against moral relativity. You can read it here if you want. In fact, I encourage it, because it plays a big role in what I’m about to share with you.
I was reading over that article the other day and trying to think of what I would write about for my next post when I realized something:
That blog is kind of pretentious, and vague, and badly argued, and doesn’t seem to serve any real purpose.
Actually, the more I read it, the stupider it started to sound. Who am I even talking to? Guess what, Catholics! Moral relativity is bad. Duh.
I mean, who does that writer think he is?
It’s not that I don’t agree with myself. Moral truth DOES exist, and moral relativity IS…well…wrong. I don’t think it’s poorly written either (toot toot), but it’s the tone of the article that bothers me. That isn’t me, not by a long shot, and it certainly wasn’t a good use of my time or talent (and there’s not a lot of that to waste).
Here I am, a converted, enthusiastic blogger with a year of Catholicism under my belt, ready to step out into a new territory and start writing about this faith that I’ve absolutely fallen in love with, and what do I do? I write some finger wagging, empty shell of a lecture on morality like I’m some type of theological know-it-all.
Please.
I’ve got a story to tell, a damn good one at that. Catholicism turned my life completely inside out. It changed the way I lived, the way I thought, and the way I perceived every little detail of my life. It saved me from certain damnation, and I’m really freakin’ excited about.
So why did I write that article? Why did I write something in a tone so removed from who I really am, about a subject that I really don’t know enough about?
Probably because deep down I want to be this mystifying theologian with a firm, awe inspiring grasp on the Catholic faith. Probably because my Priest once told me he thought I had the gift of insight, and I let it go to my head (Screwtape, you jerk). Probably because (for whatever reason) I felt like if I’m going to write about the Catholic faith, then I needed to do so in a proper, concise, and serious manner that focuses on the real issues facing the Church.
By the Grace of God, I started paying attention to the blogs of Simcha Fisher . The brutal, hilarious honesty from such a compassionate and imperfect Catholic hit me right in the gut. A light came on, and God said “Hey, dummy. Maybe when I called you to write, I wanted to write as yourself, not as this character you’re trying to be.”
So, that’s what I’ll do. I’ll write as me, as honestly as I can, flaws and all. And let me tell you, I’ve got a lot. I’m quick to anger. I can’t shut up. I curse too much (trying hard to fix that one. Pray for me) I love to argue. I question God. I question His teachings, and I even question His calling for my life. But I love Him, and I love His Church, and at the end of the day, my trust is with Him.
I am an astoundingly imperfect human being with a big mouth and a calling to spread God’s word.
Full speed ahead!
10 thoughts on “A Confession”
” It saved me from certain damnation, …” Pray tell, how did you get so close to
damnation ?
The same way we all do. Life is full of mysteries, but that ain’t one of ’em.
….because that’s what Christ and his Church do for all of us. I guess I could give you a detailed testimony about how I was on the wrong path, blah, blah. But who wants to hear that, yeah?
I would think ‘path’ could mean something else too.
Oh, man. I misread your question at first. How did I get so close to damnation? Because I’m a sinner, and like most sinners, I’m undeserving of God’s love and mercy. That kind of thing.
But hey, regardless, feel free to nitpick every word and draw up any conclusion you want.
Will do.
Hopefully you’re getting answers to your questions! Enjoyed your article.
By the grace of God, I am. Thank you for your support, and I’m glad you enjoyed the article.
By the grace of God, I am. Thank you for your support. I’m glad you enjoyed it.
Link to your first article: https://ignitumtoday.com/2014/01/03/facing-relativism-standing-for-morality/