A Pilgrimage, Not A Vacation

[ 9 ] September 7, 2011 AD |

World Youth Day is not a vacation.

We had been warned of this ahead of time.  Our very nice hotel had a pool, and during the question and answer session with our travel leaders, someone asked, “Should we pack a bathing suit?”

“You can,” was the answer, “but you probably won’t have time to use it.”

Why?  Because World Youth Day is a pilgrimage, not a vacation.

It means seeing the sun rise when you really want to be sleeping.

Our Lady of Almudena

It means going hungry and being thirsty.

It means praying when you don’t feel like it and being pushed by crowds and overwhelmed by the sheer loudness of 1.5 million people.

It means growing beyond oneself and one’s needs.

It is saying yes to the opportunities, mercy, and love Christ gives.

It’s sharing your last sandwich with a fellow pilgrim and offering shade to a stranger.

It’s respectfully staying silent while the Pope speaks, even though you don’t have a clue what he’s saying (and then cheering as loudly as you can because he’s El Papa).

El Papa!

It’s crying during the Way of the Cross and availing of the Sacraments.

 

It’s something so powerful that for the last two weeks I’ve been scratching my head, wondering how to explain it and what it did to me.  Thankfully Hurricane Irene came for a visit and knocked out my power, so I had even more time to ponder my experience.

As I left for World Youth Day, I went with a prickly heart, hoping for something wonderful, but inwardly very afraid of getting nothing out of the pilgrimage.  For the past year or so, I’ve been quietly struggling to believe that God has a plan for me.  As others moved forward with their lives, whether in relationships, jobs, apartments or homes, my life had remained the same (and has sometimes taken steps backwards), despite my very fervent desires and prayers for positive change.

On the second day of the pilgrimage, the Franciscan Sisters of the Renewal, who traveled with my group, taught us a simple song:

The joy of the Lord will be my strength.

I will not waver walking by faith.

I am surrounded by mercy and grace.

The joy of the Lord is my strength. 

My heart constricted in pain.  I hadn’t felt joyful in the Lord in a long time, and I dreaded having to sing this song over and over for the next few days.  But, that night as I lay in bed, I couldn’t get it out of my head.  It played on repeat through the night, and I woke up humming it.

The following days were a blur of sessions at the Love and Life Centre, Morning Prayer with my group, spending time in front of the Blessed Sacrament, cheering for Pope Benedict, participating in Mass, and making friends with other pilgrims in the streets.  I joined in a dance circle of Spanish pilgrims, traded knickknacks with South Koreans, and brushed up on my rudimentary Italian when squished against a group from Tuscany in the Metro.  Every pilgrim exuded such happiness despite being tired, hungry, and constantly thirsty.  By the end of the week, my heart felt stretched.  I’d observed the Franciscan Sisters of the Renewal who never complained and constantly died to self.  I’d listened to my fellow pilgrims share the way Christ was present in their lives.  I’d joined the roar of support and love for Pope Benedict XVI.  And I was finally eager to raise my voice and sing.

Circle of Pilgrims

My heart felt totally light and full for the first time in months.  The small fence I’d built around it had been demolished by the Holy Spirit, who was strongly present at World Youth Day.  Every session spoke of a God who knows us, loves us, and provides for us, things I was desperate to believe again.  I laughed when I opened the YOUCAT for the first time and wound up at this quote from St. Augustine: “He who made you knows what he wants to do with you.”  It didn’t hurt my heart to agree and to surrender.  Yes, Lord, you know me and you love me.  I believe.

World Youth Day was so powerful not because it was an energizing encounter with a million young Catholics, but more importantly, because it was an encounter with the Lord.  In the midst of 1.5 million people, He spoke personally to me.

I didn’t need a vacation.  I needed a pilgrimage, and I’m so glad that’s exactly what World Youth was.

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  • http://hereisthechurch.wordpress.com/ Allie Terrell

    It sounds like you really had a wonderful time and took advantage of all WYD had to offer!

  • http://allieisfantastical.blogspot.com Allison

    Oh my goodness, such a good post! I struggled a lot this summer with being jealous of others experiences, like going to World Youth Day, mission trips, or working at Catholic summer camps, and I felt so left out. But the Lord knows just we need. I was surprised with the opportunity to help staff Aggie Awakening towards the end of summer. That weekend, just three short days, renewed my faith in the community of Catholic college students, and most importantly, strengthened my relationship with Him. Thanks for sharing your experience!

  • http://virtuouspla.net/ Julie Robison

    What an awesome testimony Trista! Thank you for sharing this!

  • http://marccardaronella.com Marc Cardaronella

    Wow! That’s amazing Trista! That’s exactly what a pilgrimage should be huh? And more!

  • http://gedert014.wordpress.com Emily

    This is so awesome, Trista! I’m so happy to hear your experience! And what an awesome pilgrimage. I’m glad you got everything out of it and more :)

  • http://www.feminismthecatholicfword.blogspot.com Christine Falk Dalessio

    “The small fence I’d built around it had been demolished by the Holy Spirit, “… I pray that the entire Church has this same experience in these days of growth and change. You hit the nail on the head- when we are open … when are hearts are “stretched” to the place where we have room to receive… then the Holy Spirit can work.
    I was also there. I share the joys and hardships… but I think the core truth is in what you said. It was not just an encounter with young people, but most importantly an encounter with the Lord. How beautiful that we could also encounter the Lord in those millions of young people who joined us in a celebration of faith and life!

  • http://thisjourneyofmylife.wordpress.com Ciska @ This Journey

    The main reason I didn’t go to Madrid was because it was presented as ‘a vacation to the sun, with lots of fun and lots of people’ in our country. Of course, when the young people returned, many complained about the weather, the food, the “uselessness” of the mass with the pope where you couldn’t hear anything … It’s a pity that these days weren’t called what they are, a pilgrimage. That way, people would be better prepared. Oh well.

  • Marianne

    Awesome website and it is wonderful seeing young people take our Catholic faith seriously! When are you all getting a Facebook page?

  • Marianne V.

    Thank you for your post! It was similar to my pilgrimage to Medjugorje ten years ago. A most Christ/Mary filled time that I will never forget, and still is with in Mass and in prayer. Your story, Trista, moved me to tears. God is so with us!

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